Our Next Journey: Unemployment

So, here I am, writing on a blog that I've thought about for months.  The idea for this blog came to me many months ago.  However, I knew it would be some time before the idea could come to any sort of fruition.  Now I am newly unemployed by choice.  Many sad and real stories tell the current heartache of unemployment. I by no means wish to minimize that.  My husband Eric and I have come to a point in our lives where we had to make a decision.  To make a very long story short, we have decided that in order to refocus on what's important, simplify, and allow me a time of rest and renewal, I needed to quit my job.  It was a difficult decision for me.  I am a staunchly responsible person...to a fault.  You may wonder how responsibility could be negative....well, I can tell you. I feel a psychological and "real" responsibility for things others don't necessarily have.  It was tough to admit that I needed to leave my job because I HAD to be responsible for our clients.  They needed me.  Well, at least I thought so.  I could intellectually understand that I wasn't responsible for their situations, but emotionally I was quite tied to the situation. I know that may seem vague, but it made putting our family and my health first quite difficult.

Now, we've reached a point where that decision has been made and we are moving forward into a new frontier.  My current focus is one that my loving husband gave me: rest, relax, and do more of the things I love.  He's more amazing than I ever give him credit for.  He is giving me time and space to be myself, enjoy life, and dream big.  I'm ever grateful for him.

I love to write.  Am I good at it? Well, does it matter? It's healing and thought-provoking for me to express myself through written word. I have decided to regularly share my life, thoughts, and goings-on through this blog.  My hope is that others can relate, find it encouraging, and above all, that God is pleased.  The idea behind the mustard seed comes from Matthew 13:31-32.  "Another parable He put forth to them, saying: 'The kingdom of heaven is like a mustard seed, which a man took and sowed in his field, which indeed is the least of all the seeds; but when it is grown it is greater than the herbs and becomes a tree, so that the birds of the air come and nest in its branches.'"  Jesus also says in Matthew 17:20 that "...if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you."  God has constantly been revealing to me that I am a doubter.  However, the faith of a mustard seed, tiny when sown, can become a great tree or can move mountains.  I want that to characterize my life, and this measly blog is a tangible way to hold myself accountable to what God does in my life and in the lives of those around me.

a mustard seed

Eric, my awesome husband, got me this card on Friday when I officially became unemployed.  I thoroughly enjoyed his humor and wanted to share it with you.  Enjoy:)

Also, I should mention that I coach CrossFit part-time and plan to continue to do that.  It is something I love and am passionate about.  It is definitely not a stressor, but a joy!